awesome boredness

How Old Is Your Mind

 : 40 and up (kahkahkah)

You've seen done and experienced many things (fair la. ade yang best and sebaliknye), you find anything of
this time annoying useless and a waste of time (not all sangat la kan). You crave the times before all this
 technology and Bieber nonsense (bieber nonsense? sorry belieber ihiks kuiz ni yg tulis :p).  

You stay true to who you are (aww! ^_^).

 # tempat merepek aku di sini

des'ree

Listen as your day unfolds
Challenge what the future holds
Try and keep your head up to the sky
Lovers they may cause your tears
Go ahead release your fears
Stand up and be counted 
don't be ashamed to cry..

u've no idea, how hard hurt it is..

You gotta be bold
you gotta be wiser
You gotta be hard
you gotta be tough, 
you gotta be stronger
You gotta be cool
you gotta be calm
you gotta stay together
All I know,
love will save the day


Time asks no questions
 it goes on without you
Leaving you behind if you can't stand the pace
The world keeps on spinning
can't stop it if you tried to
The best part is danger staring you in the face


Got to be bold, 
got to be wise
no never sad..

Indecisive, Empty Decorations.

I wake in the dawn to showers of light
Moments of emptiness surround
Floating away with auras of hope
But reality brings me down to the ground
What can i do ?
What can i say ?
I need a place to hide away
Just for a while, just for a smile
Just for the life i used to know

Where every song
Was filled with words of love and not of anger
Where did they go?
Why did they leave me far behind?
 

:'(

Cause i don't wanna be alone 

Living life all on my own 

I don't wanna live my life in isolation
Filled with empty decorations
Cause i wanna be with the people that i know
Who will do the things i do 

Making all my dreams come true
I don't recognise the shadows on my door
Although i've seen them all before
Because the only thing i really want is to be with you..

I look at the sky, it looks back at me
I can't hear the silent melodies
I know that i'm here yet i am lost
Blown in confusion by the breeze
Hiding my face, crying alone
I need to find my way back home
Back to the place, the wonderful days
Living the life i used to know
Where every smile
Was born out of a love and of sincerity
And every tear of everflowing joy..

hati si cermin mata

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim..

Bersangka sangka tu, selalunya berdosa. nak tau sebab pa?
pasaii sehtann ni memang suka kacau akal, hati orang.
kekadang kita punya la paksa "jangan pikir benda yang tak betul pun" "jangan pikir benda yang boleh merosakkan hubungan". tapi kekadang kalah jugak.
sehtan ni, memang tak boleh tengok orang saling menyebarluaskan jajahan ukhuwah fillah antara satu sama lain betoi.

senyuman, layanan, tu memang kita boleh pakai mask kalaupun kita tengah tak ok.
tapi hati? tu kita dengan Allah je tau. sesama manusia boleh di-make up untuk cover. tapi, tak boleh tipu dengan Allah.
bukankah Dia yang bagi kita sekeping hati itu? (eh, keping ea. entahla ek.)
dari Dialah kita dapat tempat tu utk simpan khazanah rahsia yang memang top secret.

sooo,
tugas jaga hati ni bukanlah picisan punya kerja.
macam mana kita berusaha tutup ketidak-ok-an kita waktu ko,
macam tu jugak kita kena didik hati kita untuk prevent hati kita dari even terlintas benda yang tak patut terlintas.
senang cite, didik hati untuk bersangka manis. kata pun manis, so confirm absolutely lah ianya manis untuk die. dan kita. kita dan dia dapat profit. untung!

kisah menyelit:
selalu aku pikiaq sorang hamba Allah ni tak suka bila aku bebel pasal Islam. sebab die suka buat dengar tak dengar je. aku pun tak nampak ape yang die struggling utk berhijrah. kira macam effort aku tak bagi sikit effect la cenggitu.
TAPI,
rupenye-rupenye text2 aku, die simpan. (ni kes menge-check kihkih)
die pun ade struggle untuk hijrah.

su uzhdon telah membutakan mataku. sekaligus, merentap kasih sayang untuk ku tumpahkan kepadanya kerana ku pikir die tidak kisah pasal kata kataku.
 

spread ukhuwah fillah, spread the love.
sekian. may Allah bless us. aamiin.

terbanglah duhai cinta.

sentuhlah hati manusia.

berjalan-jalan

jenjalan dgn kakak sayang dekat bandar.
mata tak tau nak tengok mana. atas, adush seksa, tengok bawah, alah, dua kali lima.
view die, pesat but sesak. masing-masing dgn urusan sndr.
kaki laju melangkah.

sampai kat jejantas,
ade sorang cina. dia oku, jual tisu. impressive.
sebab dia carik rezeki bukan dgn meminta-minta.
hati manusia mana tak tersentuh.
akak aku pun story, penah ade satu waktu, uncle tu kena nganjing. dgn group bdk sekolah pulak tu.
aku wonder, hati ape yang ade dalam diri dorg?
gila kesian kot :'(

pastu, sampai pulak kt hostel.
time jenjalan, ade sorg budak kecik ni,
kena sumpah seranah dgn mak senirik sbb jalan lambat.
"ko jalan lmbt aku sumpah ko mati"
acik, budak tu kecik, langkahnye pun kecik la. i bet, akal acik matang enough to think that an.
aku sangat sangat amat risau psikologi budak tu bila dh besar.
i hope awak kuat ea dek? :'(

out of blue, akal aku interpret,
aku hidup dgn family yang sayang, amek berat, memahami aku.
ALHAMDULILLAH. terima kasih sangat, Allah :')

betullah, jauh perjalanan luas pemandangan.
selalunya, aku hanya hafal point bila buat karangan pasal gejala sosial. masalah family, tak cukup didikan agama and blabla.
rupe-rupenye, realiti memang macam tu.
sedih oi, sedih, bila tengok sendiri dgn mata kepala.
tetibe, teringat part tuan bg hebahan mutiara nasihat beliau.
meaningful. berbekas sampai hari ni.

so, didikan agama, kasih sayang, memang extremely important dalam pembentukan masa depan.
anak anak ni mcm kain putih. ibu bapa yang mencorak. aiwah kreekkreek.
tp serious ni, serious. memang extremely important :)

jenjalan, belajar dari persekitaran, hadam hikmah. superb bermakna~

what makes YOU beautiful

ghadul basor 

You're secure, i know what for

You lower your heads when you walk through the jostling thro-o-o-ongs

Don't need make-up - to cover up

Being the way u hijab that are eno-o-ough

Everyone else with imaan can see it Everyone else but you

girl you light up the world like nobody else

The way that you hijab your hair gets me not to overwhelmed

the way you smile at the ground, it ain't hard to tell 

You don't know Oh oh

You don't know you're beautiful!

eh?

If only you saw what I could see you'd understand why I want you so desperatley

Right now I'm looking at you and I can't believe

You don't know Oh oh You don't know you're beautiful! Oh oh

Hijab makes you beautiful!

so c-come on!! you got it wrong! To prove I'm right I put it in a so-o-ong

I know why, you're being shy And turn away when I look in to your eye eye eyes

Everyone else with imaan can see it Everyone else but yo-ouuu

Girl you light up the world like nobody else

The way that you hijab your hair gets me not to overwhelmed

the way you smile at the ground, it ain't hard to tell 

sparkling

You don't know Oh oh

You don't know you're beautiful!

If only you saw what I can see You'll understand why I want you so desperatley

Right now I'm looking at you and I can't believe
You don't know Oh oh

You don't know you're beautiful!
Oh oh Hijab makes you beautiful!

Na na na na na na naaaa na na, Na na na na na na. Na na na na na na naaaa na na, Na na na na na na

wink!

Girl you light up the world like nobody else
The way that you hijab your hair gets me not to overwhelmed

But when you smile at the ground, it ain't hard to tell
You don't know Oh oh

You don't know you're beautiful!

If only you saw what I can see You'll understand why I want you so desperatley

Right now I'm looking at you and I can't believe
You don't know No Oh oh

You don't know you're beautiful!
No Oh oh You don't know you're beautiful!
No Oh oh Hijab makes you beautiful!

Credit : Azfar Hamdii

bottom of heart

I was studying for a very important test, up to a point where I had to choose between reading the Quran or keep on studying. 

I try to read the Quran everyday. When I was studying, I thought of skipping reading the Quran for that day. Then I realized that I was too preoccupied and attached to the test and how I will perform in it.

A thought came to mind, "Aiman, do not think that a good grade comes from you. It comes from Allah." 

I dropped my notes down and picked the Quran up. After reading two pages of it, I continued studying. 

Priorities. Priorities. Priorities.

 #dush sebijik i terkena :\



nak belajar buku ke, belajar masak ke, nak belajar jahit ke, nak belajar solehah ke,
it start from the heart. the niat. niat. 

berkisar SPM ~

fighting for my SPM 12'

tahu tak ape tu kesetiaan? still bersama buku even masa tidur. 

tahu tak ape tu kebahagiaan? bergolek atas katil dgn buku-buku. 

tahu tak ape tu kesungguhan? stay up sepanjang malam especially pada malam terakhir. 

tahu tak ape tu pengorbanan? melepaskan buku pada waktu paling genting.  

tahu tak ape tu keberanian? masuk dewan exam even tak habis khatam buku.

berat? smile! ;)

 

semua tu pengajaran.

janganlah down sangat.

Allah bagi benda semua bersebab kan?

 (",)

takkan tunggu benda happy datang, 

baru nak senyum.

kay,

i'm done here.

now, 

i'm stronger!

:) 

 

hec-hec hidup happy

luar alam punya title.
bohong jak.

malam aku kemerengan plus kediaman (rumah? no) kesenyapan for accurate (?)
then equal to [takde mood]

hahaks gue ikut sangat mane mood tu nak bawak.
cer la amik course CM (control mood) sikit ke.

cirita dia begini, long time ago there live a princess in a castle at Taman Bukit Dahlia hahha. her life quite miserable. bla bla malas nak habaq sebab ai bab story telling ni agak kiok failed.
ai cume rasa, kenape dia perlu judge everything about me? over je ayat :p tu first, yang second pulak, awat ngan aku hangpa fierce semacam? okay third, i felt di-syuhsyuh. then yang keempat, ni yang most important, aku yang yang tak enjoy the hikmah sebenarnya. asek gulp and gasp je. (eh tajuk buke literature english la, maknanya ape entah. spill dungu dungu punya kerja)

lepas ni, aku macam nak belajar psychology sebab aku level minus ten kalau masuk chapter "maniskan prasangkamu jika ditimpa sesuatu perkara rasa kopi tak taruk gula". boleh la aku faham apa sebenarnya hati ni rasa, apa otak patut interpret, apa action yang harus digerakkan. aiwah, skematik bahasa haha. macam gharib je. nak faham hati sendiri pun perlukan satu madah khusus?
the end. dah, bye!


#cerita kaki sikit ;
petang tadi aku happy taw. sebab aku rasa aku lain. aku rasa aku macam ramah je :D lihatlah dunia, aku gumbira! gumbigha! tetiba split personality. aku tak pandai nak tegur orang, aleh aleh bual mesra dengan mak cik siapa entah. lupa tanya nama. masa tunggu order siap, ada la jugak teman ngobrol.
eh, tadi igt nak post panjang je. out of sudden, terlebar sekali. ngaha ampun pak, mbuk atas panjang wa lebarnya :p panjang la sangat kan~

no word

orang cakap kan,
kalau hati tak tenang, mesti ade something wrong connection dia dengan Allah.

Allah, aku lemah sangat sekarang.
super duper lemah . . .

takut sangat.
kakak nak fly dah.
exam spm nanti, die mesti takde kt sini la kan?
berapa lama lagi baru dapat jumpa balik?
rasa macam...
entah...
takut sangat.

peliharalah dia ya Allah.
lindungilah dia ya Allah.
dan,
dakaplah hatinya dalam kasih cintaMu setiap waktu.
Amin.

sekarang tak boleh dating dalam solat,
tak boleh recite love letter,
mohon sangat ya Allah,
tenangkanlah hati hamba ini.

Allah. Allah. Allah . . .


#dan, post ni sengaja hamba buat guna lappy dia. harap dapat la kurang sikit rindu ni. huu (",)

knock²

Seorang wanita solehah itu 

tunduk sopan dari lelaki bukan mahram

tak lunak berbicara selain buat zauj tercinta

segan berkongsi cerita selain dari yang halal baginya.

Percayalah

bagaimana kamu menjaga dirimu dengan ikhwan sekarang

adalah cerminan bagaimana suamimu menjaga dirinya dari akhawat juga

yok perbaiki diri

selagi nyawa dikandung badan

pintu syurga masih terbuka

bagi siapa yang menginginkan ke sana.
-kak ngah

mesej ni, macam "ala typical je" "ala, dah tau" "hek eleh" and so on la kan.
ye, ye, memang ramai dah tau. tapi persoalan sekarang ni,

buat dah ke ape yang dah tau tu? 

buat and tau tu, dua benda yang berbeza taw.


err, sebenarnya, ni monolog diri je.
cakap sensorang.
sebab.. hmm.. sebab..
penyesalan mengetuk hati?
may be, turning point dah sampai kot...

aku tak tau la kenape.
lately ni, asek muhasabah diri punya mode je.

Allah dah ketuk hati kau ika,
so,
bila nak berubah ni?
bila??
jangan sampai gulap gulita baru asking for the light.
nanti light susah dah nak masuk.

show me the way oh Allah.
please guide me.
daku hamba hina,
yang tak pandai nak kuat
kalau takde-Mu ya Allah.

㋡

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim

it's all about me
bila cinta Dia mengetuk ....

(a)   first², Allah datangkan sorang mamat dalam hidup aku. 

460 darjah hidup aku tertonggang terbalik. 

(b)   then, aku lalu proses tarbiyah. peritnya? tak boleh cerita. tak tergambar dgn katakata oi.. sakit ..

(c)   pastu, aku jalani kehidupan macam biasa la. kosong. bukan happy pun.

senang cerita, aku lalai ..

(d)   dan bila lalai, again, minat orang lagi. precisely, kemaruk kot.
 tapi dalam diam punya versi la ni.

bila mata meronta nak jenguk muka dia, hati kata jangan(!)

tertunduk akurlah mata. well good then.

tapi,

kat laman sesawang labah yg social je, tangan gi stalk intip semuaaa pasal dia.

tengok jugak dia. cuma yang beza, tengok dia, dlm screen. 

aku rase macam no use je aku tak tgk dia bila terserempak.
ala² jaga mata. 

aku macam ... jaga mata tapi bukan lillah. sbb taknak nanti terbiasa → terindu → terseksa. hmm no use kan?

 Kronologi ni, buat aku faham erti ikhlas.
Ikhlas dalam misi pencarian cinta agung, cinta Allah.
Main love yang sepatutnya seorang hamba dambakan.
Changing for good straight for Allah. straight kerana Allah.
tak menyimpang atas faktor lain.

(e)   angin, bawalah pesanan terima kasih ni untuk dia. kerana muncul dalam hidup dan singgah sebentar di hati ni. ye, sebentar, sekejap.
dia permulaan segalanya.
dan DIA , pencetus segalanya.
Alhamdulillah ya Allah. thank you so much! ☺
please, guide me through this life.

(f)   mungkin, masanya dah tiba. untuk ditarbiyah atas kelalaian lagi.
memang perit. tapi bahagia. bahagia sebab aku dalam perhatian Dia.

perubahan ni,
it's all baout me+HIM only. not you.
perubahan ni,
bukan sebab aku nak dia jadi spouse aku, jadi aku kene jadi macam dia.
tak. tak.
aku nak berubah sebab Allah.
pure because of Allah.
InsyaAllah ... (",)

(g)   ya Allah, susahnya nak tanggalkan karat jahiliyyah ni.

note to self : baca, faham n applykan

c'mon ika!  you've made it through from being an old ika to this new one.
why stop being a better ika?

never say die before you try, ika.
there's always a room for improvement before you reach perfection.
don't worry, He'll lead.

dah, senyum panjang kay?
 ^_____________^